hello world

i think i have an ulcer from the stress of school. it's the 5th week. in the grand scheme of things, it's whizzing right by. logically, i'm over a fourth done with the semester already...i'm not indulging in all the great things i could learn - which is only being unfair to myself.

some of my old friends have seemed to disappear for no really good reason. one friend in particular sticks out in my head when i was driving away and we both looked in our mirrors at each other, like we both knew it was good bye for a long time, maybe forever.

it's almost valentine's day. my love this year is my dog freddy. i wish i could go out for dinner with someone special.

wow, seriously? could my mail get any more messed up? i moved out of my place, put a vacation hold on my mail, didn't know it would do it for the whole house, put a change of address in, put in for a post office box, and now i can't get my mail anywhere. f.

it'll be weird going back home to live. i kind of feel like i went for a semester abroad instead of trying to start over in a new place.

i thought i'd have all this time to study for my finals, and now i'm sick and hardly have time 'cause people want to do stuff before i go. it's kind of shocking that people are sad i'm leaving... not teachers of course - they seem like they could care less... they have other students to nurture. i just kind of felt like i'd run out of here asap because no one would notice.